Unbearable

Thinking back through my life
Unbearable experiences arise.
Their memories jaded,
Truth lost to the ages.

No way to clarify
What I saw with my eyes,
Only truth that remains
Is that I’m depressed again.

Thinking to the end of my life
Unbearable compassion must arise.
Tomorrow’s life is unlikely
To awake alive but never lively.

To my future
I will tutor
Reminders of the past.

Keep remembering
The suffering
Old age comes too fast.

The infections
That bred distractions
From moment’s true cast.

Being born
Already torn
Blown like an untethered mast.

Unbearable compassion,
Destroyer of delusion,
Self cherishing parasite,
May you perish this night.